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I’ve been a little CRANKY this summer.

Since taking a small hiatus after a CRAZY few weeks, I’m back on the blog!

I honestly can’t remember a time when I’ve had to continuously put my agenda and plans on hold over such a long period of time. (And for someone like me, well, let’s just say that can be quite challenging.) It seems like week after week, I found myself rearranging my important schedule in order to fit in someone else’s more important needs. (Notice the attitude behind the italics?)

My life-altering, all-too-important blog writing, (that I absolutely love to do), has been sporadic at best. Instead, it’s been replaced with real “hands-on” work – the kind that I’d honestly prefer not to do because it requires sacrificial time, patience and committed servant hood. (Sleepless nights included.)

Quite frankly, it’s been a pain in the butt.

But boy, has it been worth it! I’ve seen lives changed forever. I’ve shared a lot of tears, pain, despair, joy and discovery. It took some time but after wallowing in crankiness awhile, I remembered something:

Serving others is what my life is SUPPOSED to be about.

At least, that’s the way I read it . . .

  • “No one should seek their own good, but the good of others.” (1 Cor. 10:24, NIV)
  • “Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others.” (Phil. 2:3-4)
  • “Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms.” (1 Peter 4:10)
  • “And do not forget to do good and to share with others, for with such sacrifices God is pleased.” Hebrews 13:16
  • “Do to others as you would have them do to you.” (Luke 6:31)

One of my all-time favorite preachers, Jon Courson, once said that if you don’t want to feel put-out and frustrated all of the time (my paraphrase), then just always expect to be interrupted. That way you won’t ever be disappointed. I think there’s great wisdom in that.

I also think it’s time to recalibrate our priorities and decide what’s most important in life. Are we more “others” focused or “me” focused? Are we more heavenly minded or earthly minded? Are we able to drop our agenda’s without the attitude in order to put someone else’s needs first?

I’m not going to lie – this is a challenge for me. I still get stuck on, when’s it MY turn??

But I’d rather place my bets on God’s Word, trusting that good things will come to those that do. I hope you do too!

Tell me . . .

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Who do you think you are?

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about identity. You see, for many years when people asked me what I did, I told them I was “a singer.” I didn’t just tell them, I sing; I had to say, I am a singer. For me, being a singer was who I was – not just what I did. I wanted to feel big. I wanted to feel important. Being a singer was my identity.

And then God called me away from singing. No more band, no more studio work, no more writing songs, worship leading – nothing. It was a test.

 Do you trust me, Sherri?

But God, this is who I am!

No. This is what you do. This is not your “who.”

And with that, the journey of finding my true identity began.

Although it was my choice to obey God and leave my singing behind, I began licking deep wounds and seeking all the sympathy I could find. I’ll never forget sitting on my friends purple couch crying my eyes out, telling her I felt like I was dying. Truth is, I was. I was dying to self. I was dying to all of the aspirations of being “great” in the worlds eyes. I was dying to my will, my desires and many, many other things.

            But mostly, I was dying to my false identity.

Why did God so desperately want me to really get who I was? Because I wasn’t free. And I wasn’t very happy. Although I was a Christ follower, the truth was, I was operating out of a false identity and as a result, everything I did: how I behaved, thought, acted and reacted, all stemmed out of it. I didn’t get how much I was loved by God. I didn’t get what being His child really meant for me. And so, all of the singing and performing in the world could never satisfy me.

See, it’s not that telling people that I was “a singer” was wrong in and of itself. That wasn’t the problem.

It’s when it turned into the primary identity that I operated out of that it became unhealthy.

After a few years in the “desert” with God diligently and proactively learning about who He was so that I could then learn about who I was, I began to better understand my true identity. And even better than that, own it.

So, who do I think I am now? At the core, I am simply Sherri Bennett, daughter of God, made in the image of my Father and a big-time “Daddy’s girl.” I am also a singer (yes, God brought that back again), a writer, a mother, a wife. But now, I operate out of the core identity on which all of these other things that I do, are built on. And I am more fulfilled and happier than I ever was in my career before.

I’m curious. Who do you think YOU are? What identity do you honestly, typically operate out of on a regular basis? Mom? Boss? Boyfriend/girlfriend? Pastor? Musician? How do you think that is affecting your life? Or, what does operating out of your identity mean to you or do you even think it’s important? And by the way, if you are someone who knows me personally, there’s no need to put any identification in your responses such as your name or title, e.g., “your sister.” This way others will not know who you are. I want to respect complete anonymity in this blog so that all will feel safe to be completely honest.

I look forward to hearing your thoughts!