Okay, once again it’s been a long stretch since I’ve written last – at least eight weeks or so. But then again, who’s counting?
Life’s been awesome since letting go and not giving a rip about being so perfect. I’m not kidding. I’m back in school and have never been more relaxed. Straight-A’s? We’ll see. My daughter’s baby is due in two weeks and I’m not even thinking about sleepless nights, throw-up on my clothes or endless poopy diapers. And blogging? What’s that?
And yet, it’s all good. Really good.
Why the shift? I genuinely believe it has to do with what I wrote about in one of my last blogs, Trust is a Verb. After posting it, I decided that trust was going to be this years word to ruminate on. Moreover, it was a much-needed reminder that trust is a decision I make – not a feeling to live by. And I’ve been practicing this ever since. (You think I write these blogs for you. They’re really for me.) I’ve been choosing to trust God with school work, writing and newborn poop. It’ll all be taken care of eventually. (Well, the newborn poop sooner than later.)
All of that said, besides sitting on the word trust for the year, I’ve also been thinking about how I want to be different by this time next year and more importantly, how I plan to get there. In my community group of awesome ladies, we talked a few weeks ago about just that – that it’s about taking small, individual steps to meet our goal; that when we focus only on the big picture, we can end up getting discouraged and stop trying.
But if we just take that first step… and then another… and celebrate all of the little victories along the way, before we know it, we’re that much closer to being where we want to be.
Because we crazy small-group ladies need all the help we can get, I made us a little something tangible to celebrate each step we take and to encourage us on our journey. It’s a simple staircase where underneath each stair we write the step we took toward our goal, along with the date. There’s also a place at the top for us to write out our long-term goal along with our theme Scripture for this year, Ephesians 3:20:
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us”
So for example, by this time next year I want to have a deeper, more intimate relationship with God through implementing more spiritual disciplines such as fasting, lectio divina exercises, and so on. Accordingly, underneath my first step I put 1/1/15 and then “fasted” underneath as a way to celebrate the New Year with God and thank Him ahead of time for all He’s going to do. You know, give Him my “first fruits,” so to speak. Under my next step I put 1/9/15 with “Lectio divina” underneath. Yes – over a full week went by before I took my next “step.” And that’s perfectly fine with me. By the way, I keep this on my desk where I can see it everyday.
I like this much better than making a New Year “resolution” because I don’t want to be stressed about making a promise I may or may not keep. Personally, I need a little more grace than that. But even more so, these steps are about implementing lifetime changes; not fulfilling a promise for a year. I want to be different. I want to keep plugging away at my goal – whether I take ten steps a month or ten steps a year; whether I use ten pages of staircases or only three. No pressure, no promises. Just a bunch of little victories – one at a time.
For a download of my ultra-cool, fancy staircase, click here.
Oh, one more update: I am well on my way to writing my book, Secrets of a Screwed-Up Saint, and will be posting excerpts from it over the next few months, so keep a look out. Your continued prayers are greatly appreciated.